After a long month of fasting and discipline, Hari Raya Aidilfitri arrives in Shawwal month. It is the day where all Muslim celebrate their victory over Ramadhan and discipline themselves against hunger and lust. The day comes safely and the celebration should equal with the struggle we put during Ramadhan.
This is what usually happen every year and expected this year also. But the reality tends to betray our expectation. A worldwide epidemic occurs and spread around the world putting everyone at risk. Death cases increases and many people been reported to fallen sick drastically. This cause the world become upside down during the first few week.
Appropriate actions have been taken by every nation to blocking the spreading of Covid-19 including Malaysia also. One of it is the Movement Control Order (MCO). This restriction movement has been happening for more than a month although initially been make for two week. It seems the MCO will continue for another month and that include the celebration for Hari Raya Aidilfitri together within it restriction.
The cases didn’t seem to slow down causing the MCO to extend again and again. All in the end taking the celebration down with it. Thus, that is why the celebration this year deems to be a lot quieter and modest rather than the past records. Peoples scare to get infected but their desire to go outside overweight it’s all. Not to mention that when they get outside they tend to careless in taking care of themselves and so on.
This is the real reason be behind all the rising case. Reason to why this year Raya feel like any ordinary day to me. If my family or television didn’t busy with the preparation, I tend to forget about it actually. After all, I didn’t get to go out during MCO and there are not many shop play Hari Raya song make me totally forget about the upcoming celebration.
When the day finally comes, it become quite a cold day and it feel like any ordinary day for me. All look the same except the scenery of celebration that my family makes preparation from morning to night yesterday. When I said it is a cold day, it literally cold with rain that semi heavy pouring from the sky from time to time until evening.
Thus for the whole day, it passed like that with whole family wearing celebration clothes but having a casual day like always. The kuih-muih that been prepared for guest, I the one that eat it while doing assignment given from Sir Khalil. My entire family member taking this day with casual approach but still celebrates merrily it among us.
This is the first time that during the first Raya, there are no visitor at all. Usually my place going to be assembly for others to come visit and so on but not this year. For once, I can have a change scene and peace during my time doing assignment. I sure feel nice doing it with the wind and rain pouring a bit to my skin due to storm.
Nothing I can say much but refreshing and relax in my first Raya this year. Unfortunately, I can’t say the same for the next day. I open the door as I investigate something. I thought that I heard something calling from the outside and it is true. It actually my aunty aka my father’s sister came visits us together with her family.
Then without wasting any time we entertain our guest as we should do and the feeling that absence yesterday actually appear today. The feeling of truly celebrating Hari Raya Aidilfitri together with others. It’s not a bad feeling at all. I put my assignment aside and include myself inside the mood. Maybe this year celebration will be not bad at all.
Laugh and smile sounded from my house and it is a sure happiness can be feeling from it. This is what should be feeling during Hari Raya Aidilfitri especially among family member. After all, we share the same blood from the same progenitor in the end. What matter actually are the family and the bond that share from it.
Celebration usually unites people under one intention but for this year it sure feels different. People always said that we only feel something precious once we lost it. From my perspective, the statement is true. Every year I’m able to celebrate Hari Raya Aidilfitri but I never notice how precious the moment is. To notice how precious the moment once it’s gone. Thus how grateful I’m, to able be together with my family and brothers.
My heart beating fast and my finger can’t stop shaking the moment I wrote this. The feeling still lingering behind in my mind. I keep writing and writing with my passion fuel from happiness. I just hope that this moment stays forever and that my sole wish for now. This is a wish from a guy that just notices how precious his family is and not the celebration actually. A little wish from the guy that actually ignorant all these time.
I pull my eye from the screen for a moment and look up to the night sky. Many things pass through my mind but none of it capable giving me the impression as that moment. A moment of enlighten. Thinking about it making my heart beat faster and a smile unconsciously appears on my face. A smile that wish you “Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri” and “Maaf zahir dan batin”.
Same with me
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